HM – No Cats Punched, to Date

I’ve constantly used Xanga to unpack and hide nightmares. I have a few new ones.

I hate where my friends are going with their lives. I do. I really do. Because they are places I can neither follow nor tolerate, but I also really wouldn’t want to do either of them.

Add to this the fact that I am angry all the time, right now… I’m becoming a very angry person. Because of a few specific individuals in my life. And the fact that I love one of them despite her stupidity, and I’m trying desperately to STOP loving the other one because of his.

There is that thing people say – “couldn’t care less” – about things. This time its true. I really couldn’t care less about most of these problems. But they are my problems by simple lived association. Horrors and terrors, they are. These things cause me to hate a lot of things.

Also, I’m slowly starting to (finally) get ACTUALLY lonely. Over a year of being “officially” single, now (1.5 years, I think) and I’m just now starting to want that connection back. I haven’t repaired any of the damage done, I don’t think. None of it. I think I’m still dealing with a heart in a jar, burned to a crisp, stomped upon, and kicked around town a few times. I don’t think its even close to being ready to come out of that damned jar. I haven’t even looked at it in so long.

Scared, angry, and lonely. Depressed, then, too. And overworked. So I’ve got tired on there, up on top.

Anxious about tomorrows. I’m always anxious about those, though. So, you know, there’s that. I mean, if you aren’t fearing the future… what are you doing with it?

The past, though, is where the true abominations live. The past is where everything is dead. The past is where dead things can regain life, too. The past is a strange and sick place.

The present?

I don’t believe in it.

Here’s what I can believe in: I will never punch a cat in the jaw. I believe that to be more than true.


Added September 7, 2016
I was in an odd place. That jar, with its blackened contents, rested on that shelf far longer than it had in years. Longer than this post indicates, even. It has healed and is comfortably resting on someone else’s shelf.
Young Skyler, much like any iteration of him, has a penchant to be over-dramatic. I love him for it.

HM – AVATAR

100% correctly hyped, Avatar delivers Cameron’s over-a-decade long dream with every promise he’d made.

Worth every penny to see in 3D, this visual wonder is not going to win “best story” awards, nor should it. The tale itself is very simple (albeit with strong pro-green/anti-war threads strewn throughout) and the characters are not complex. But its messages are still powerful, its performances are nailed, spot-on time and time again, and the new age of CG is here, my friends.

Images and trailers showing four-five seconds of footage cut in a mish-mash of scenes does little justice for the splendor of this film. In full motion, Cameron has managed to get his actors’ performances transposed beautifully from their real selves to their digital, Na’vi counterparts. While initially the blue inhabitants of the planet Pandora looked very fake, the only reason you’ll know they are while watching the movie is because you keep telling yourself they aren’t real. The eyes, mouths, and body language are all real and a sight to behold. And the world they inhabit is just as real.

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“does little justice”

See this movie in 3D if you can, but see this movie no matter what. If you like action, effects, kick-ass soundtracks, good messages, wonderful acting, and – more importantly – James Cameron…. see this movie. If you like great cinema, having a good time at the theatre, and – more importantly – James Cameron…. see this movie. If you love being swept away by art in any medium, getting lost from the real world for a few hours, and – more importantly – James Cameron…. see this movie.

If you hate any of those things… go die.


Added September 8, 2016
I think you’ll see this post, like, 100 times so I’m not going to add anything, here, aside from the fact that there are four more of these things coming, starting next Christmas. Ugh.