everyone is in india
or california
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xanga collapsed. like a dying star. i found bits of star dust. i have recompiled. restructured.
not all is as it was.
but, then again, nothing is ever as it was.
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once upon a time i was asked why i keep this thing, if nostaligia is worth it.
nostalgia.
it used to be something akin to homesickness.
wistful thought about something happy in the past… or homesickness.
hm.
i need this old part of me. i don’t know why. i’ve said it a few times and will likely say it a few times, more, but the bottom line is that this is a part of me and i can’t willingly kill a part of me.
the universe tried to do it already, crushing xanga into a black hole and then nothing.
i don’t review it, though. haven’t for a long time. who has the minutes or hours of a day necessary for such a trip? not modern skyler.
past skyler wouldn’t mind a visit, but the skyler of today has too much going on. selling a house, work, lamenting, living in languid, lethargic lividity.
hm.
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iowa has been very kind to me. i need to do something to show my appreciation
Added March 21, 2016
Many things in the world have changed, but many things have remained the same. I miss Iowa, sometimes. Sometimes, I feel like I’m still there. The world is a very strange place.
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