“Livin’ like a bug ain’t easy”
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Is it bad that I’m kinda scared to go to sleep? Tomorrow is going to be a big day. Really big. Like, the biggest day I’ve had all semester. If something goes wrong, and I mean anything at all, its going to ruin the day. And maybe the week. It’ll pretty much throw off the entire semester thus far. I won’t be able to take that, I don’t think.
Sometimes I have conversations with people that result in me being confused. Its normal for people talking to me to get confused, but its rare that I’m aware enough of whats being said to even get confused about it. Sometimes my views on life get kinda turned upside down for no reason, other than the fact that I don’t understand life.
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I saw a blind guy with a seeing eye dog today and it made me think.
Those two have each other. Their lives are great and good because of each other. Both live better lives with each other than they would without one another and they have a bond and a friendship that is strong and meaningful. They rely on each other, help each other survive, and make each other’s day easier and more enjoyable. Their lives are better because they have each other.
It makes me sad that this kind of relationship is almost impossible for one human to have with another human. Its too rare.
Added February 10, 2017
That last bit about the blind man and his dog actually hits home. I completely understand what Young Skyler was trying to say and I think it was well put.
I think I’m the blind man in my relationship, based on how reliant I am to even get around with Aubrey’s help. But that would make her the dog and I would think she’d take offense to that. So its all a wash, isn’t it?